The legacy trip is this weekend.  Im pretty pumped for NYC!!!!

wooooooooo!!!!!

then the fl trip is in 23 days!! Im soo excited like omg.

idk where im going to college i decided on premed tho. hope i keepto it

gas is freaking expensive.

4.00 a gallon. ridiculous.

<3

So this font is called constantia. i thought it sounded like constance.

oh man.

so. lets see. i like to update this every now and then so i can look back and see how stuff changes.

well.

I applied to malone, akron, taylor, and palm beach atlantic.

we shall see where i attend next year

yikes.

idk this past weekend was so much fun..

friday jenny and i went out in the the fog and hung out with bryan and casey. and this other kid i don't know who he was. haha.

that was fun..

we went to walmart, and i bought a bunch of green tea.

then saturday i worked.

oh man was it crowded.. i was stuck in one spot serving peopel for 2 and a half hours.

dude. thats a long time haha

and then jenny, jon and i went to applebees.

and then to walmart. haha. dude we are tight.

and then jenny wanted to hang with ryan lol, so jon and i met ryan and then we went to jennys and watched miami vice.

and i had cold hands.

HAHAHAH. dude jennys dad said that. hah.

"Cover her with pillows" "Thats how to get to a womans heart"

dude if a guy covered me with pillows i would laugh but thats not the way to my heart. haha

Idk easters this sunday, and my grandpa passed away on easter last year.. soo.. im not too excited about that. I really miss him

and my grandma. its so hard sometimes. Like, we painted the walls in their old room. and cleaned it completely out and are buying new things.. and its so weird. for almost 5 years  could run out there and sit and everything would be the same, and now nothing is the same. and then today we got rid of this brown chair that they had for like 20 years and it was soo weird cuz its always been there and now its gone.

I try to be strong and stuff, and everyone thinks im cool with all of it.

but honestly. I miss them soo much..  its so sad sometimes.. but i try to keep busy not to think about it.. But like the whole week of my bday. i was just like my grandma is so dumb i can't believe shes faking this. but she wasn't and that sucked. she always faked it, and then all of a sudden she was telling the truth..

I think the hardest part of that was i got of work to go to the hospital, and i went down toeat something, and i came back and she was gone.. apparently i freaked out in the hallway and started crying which is weird because i don't remeber that. but idk i miss her a lot. I'm so thankful for all of my friends who were there for me.. honestly i just wanted to go curl up and not come out. but my friends helped me keep busy and i got through it nicely.

Life is so stressful rght now.. soo idk. we'll see what God has planned for me.  Hopefully its good... but I just need to trust in Him and everything will turn out how he had planned.

Do you ever wonder how things could possibly, and realistically change as much as they do.. Everything is different.  In a good way... but i miss how it all used to be.

soo.. yeah.

i kind of miss my grandpa, a lot.

I never think about him.. because its hard, and tonight. someone mentioned him and i was like aww.. i miss his hugs and like our talks late at night, and our silly fights..

tomorrow im going to the cemetary.. i hate it, hes not there, and its the closest thing i have to him, and its not good enough. =(

ughhh.

good night.

So im a senior.

its weird.

i'll be in college next year. hopefull taylor or malone.

i can only hope.

lifes weird.

i work all the time. about 20 hours a week.

and summers over. which sucks.

judgment house stuff should be starting up soon tho =)